I had felt a small lump in my breast with no other symptoms, I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer. 3 days after diagnosis I found that I was pregnant.
I didn’t know it was possible to keep the baby alongside my cancer treatment, by default, I thought I’d need a termination. I had the termination booked and meanwhile I had an emergency appointment with my surgical team where the second surgeon told me that it would be possible to keep my baby.
I was very doubtful and still very determined to go for termination of the baby that I waited for a long time, because I was very worried that baby cannot stand the chemotherapy.
I started doing research and found Mummy’s Star. When I read the stories and saw pictures of little stars, it gave me confidence and assurance to keep my little star and fight cancer whilst thinking about the development of the baby. He was 7 weeks when I went through surgery, mastectomy and auxiliary clearance, 12 weeks when I started chemotherapy and he was induced at 37 weeks +4 then I had my radiotherapy.
It was a shock for all of us. It took me about 3 months to come out of denial and accept my illness. My husband left his job and became a driver to be flexible able to take care of me and now the little star. We are originally from Afghanistan. I live with my husband and we have two daughters aged 17 and 14 in addition to my star baby. We don’t have any other relatives or family members in UK. Nothing seemed normal to me and still it doesn’t.
My older daughter didn’t cope very well and now suffering from anxiety and depression. I couldn’t continue my work and being off sick and then on maternity leave. Now that I am typing this, it is 19 months since first I felt the lump. Treatment successfully finished and I am dealing with the side effects of treatments (such as body pain, joints pain, lack of concentration and also being so irritable and emotional). I went back to work this week.